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Crystal ([personal profile] petitebelette) wrote2012-01-13 12:21 am

tvd 3.11 "our town" aka what am i supposed to do with my life right now guys

LIKE THE BEST. EPISODE. THIS SEASON. What didn't this episode have that I have wanted forever? And then something I've had in my roleplay/writing/tumblr life for months and now suddenly is canon WHAT EVEN OMG I'M HEAD TILTING SO HARD MY HEAD IS ON MY SHOULDER. HOLY CRAP.

q: guess who's aladdin and who is jasmine in this episode?
a: klaus and caroline



Since when does The Vampire Diaries hand ships over on a silver platter. SHOULD I BE WARY OF THIS DELECTABLE, FORBIDDEN, PROMISES-TO-BE-DARK-AND-BEAUTIFUL APPLE? (that will surely overripe itself and end in blood and grisly death of yumminess) WHAT IS EVEN GOING ON RIGHT NOW.

Everything clearly worked out like Klaus wanted; what's his angle here? (He obviously has an angle here. WHATISIT. Getting back at Tyler?) Does Caroline remind Klaus of Rebekah? And himself? GUYS HE TOLD CAROLINE THAT HE'S THOUGHT OF KILLING HIMSELF ONCE OR TWICE? Suckerfuckingpunch my heart, assholes. Of course he has. Okay, I'm calming down.

  • KLAUS AND CAROLINE (fuck me sideways, that's an actual heading) Okay so we've all known for awhile Klaus was getting a new love interest and I sort of laughed over it and wanted it to be/knew it wouldn't be/imagined it to be Caroline anyhow. And now it... is? So I'm not quite sure how to go about looking at this scene without that lens, but. S-so much potential right here.

    Let's go over this. He had Tyler bite Caroline to get Liz in his pocket. He told Caroline all about the shining, shimmering, splendid world of living forever and seeing real beauty and finding the desire to live when you're thinking, what's the point? He gave her a diamond bracelet. I-I don't.

    Joseph Morgan's portrayal of Klaus continues to wow and amaze me, and this is related. I can never quite tell when Klaus is being genuine or pretending to be and that's the big point: Klaus isn't quite sure when he's being genuine or not, or he's both, sometimes a little more or less; who's keeping track? (No one is, because no one cares about him. Aye, there's the rub.)

    But there was something truly genuine about this scene. He constructed this entire thing to serve a purpose, and still this happens:

    Klaus: I could let you die. If that’s what you want. If you really believe your existence has no meaning. I’ve thought about it myself once or twice over the centuries, truth be told. But I’ll let you in on a little secret. There’s a whole world out there waiting for you. Great cities, and art, and music… genuine beauty. And you can have all of it. you can have a thousand more birthdays. All you have to do is ask.
    Caroline: I don’t want to die.
    Klaus: There you go, sweetheart. Have at it. Happy birthday, Caroline.

    I love that he goes through this all: telling her all these little secrets so she asks. Klaus is a control freak; this is true. Tell me if this is just my Klaus/Caroline lens here, but there was mutual curiosity forming here? Caroline, because here is this girl, freshly turned, who constantly feels alone ("I'm never the one") and hates what she's become because other people can't accept her -- she places a lot of her value on that. Wow, sounds familiar, right? And here's Klaus, trying to build an army of hybrids because he's lonely, and sometimes he can get moody and dagger his family, and no one accepts him for the monster he's become? Yet a thousand years later he's still existing, fighting to exist, fighting to be content.

    Oh god, it's just horrible and terrifying and wonderful. I don't understand what angle Klaus is playing here, leaving her that bracelet. Grooming her to be his new Rebekah? Gosh I really want that to be it. (Maybe if I laugh about it and believe it will never happen, it'll be true.)

    #I just love how he flicks her bracelet #you know he's totally thinking like where did she get this piece of shit? I need to get her something a billion times more amazing #brb going to tiffanys

    tags not mine ok but still so relevant

  • STEFAN AND ELENA (wow) That was beautiful. Apparently I have a twisted definition of beautiful, but it was. I was physically sick to my stomach watching Stefan do that to her, drag her so awfully and horribly into his self-destruction. That he would even threaten to make her a vampire by driving her off the bridge because he is one sick fuck (making that man drink his sister's blood in to 20's, laughing about it?) and knows how to dig the knife.

    His road to self-destruction is killing me. That he thought he lost Elena the moment he left and she hasn't seen it yet? Of course. He lost all his worth the moment he killed someone innocent and enjoyed it again. But he didn't lose Elena, which is the entirely heartbreaking part. Because she held on and held on and held on and would forgive him anything -- still probably can. She will always love him, guys. ALWAYS.

    Elena's "You had me!" didn't lose any of its resonance even though I saw gifs of it on tumblr. (tumblr x( why you spoil me) And she knows. She knows Stefan just wants to make her hate him, just wants to destroy himself, but all he's accomplishing is hurting her at this point. Hurting her in ways that are simply just cruel. (When she reminded him he saved her, my heart ripped in like fucking eighteen different places.)

    You poor fucked up lovebirds. You assholes.

  • BONNIE/CAROLINE/MATT/ELENA (best friends forever) I was just so glad Bonnie, Caroline, Elena, and Matt hung out. All the little references to their from-the-sandbox lives were sort of rainbow-vomiting material.

    GO BONNIE BENNET. When she called Elena out, I was :o because damn. Harsh, like Bonnie does. And true, like Bonnie does. (I just in general also love the show calling out compulsion as taking choices and agency away in no uncertain terms. FINALLY, WTF.) Yet again, she's Team Elena all the way in the end though. Ffff, these girls. Choosing the wrong thing because they love each other and because they love Jeremy.

    Can I say I love drunk Elena? I love drunk Elena. I also love that Matt and Elena flirt and spark. I love that in the midst of falling in love with vampires, Elena turns to Matt and flirts with him. Because he is normal and sweet and a little bit hers, for always.

    The scene on the bridge -- that she called Matt -- for the love of Klaus, oh my stars. What are words. All I have are emotions. That Matt -- normal Matt who hates all this and feels stuck -- likes the girl she's becoming, that Elena admits she's stuck too and has been holding onto the girl that should have died (survivor's guilt, hello how are you) and she feels like she's disappointing that girl and her parents by being who she is, as always, just her entire existence of being the center of such supernatural madness she can't control because she was just born this way~ and how uncontrollable her feelings are for all the dark things in her life. Hnn.

    That an episode with a birthday was about death and letting go and moving on was so poetically wonderful just really hit a perfect note.

  • DAMON AND ELENA (because this ship sails strongest when they don't see each other the entire episode and instead constantly think about the other and inquire after each other at every chance) HELLO, I LOVE YOU IDIOTS.

    Maybe I should just leave this to [ profile] ever_neutral to give my feelings thoughts but I'll stab at it.

    Elena: You can't kiss me again.
    Damon: I know.
    Elena: I can't. It's not right.
    Damon: It's right. It's just not right now.

    What this gif set fails to show

    ah, there we go
    is Elena's incredulous look afterwards. She's all wait what? when was this right at any point in time? but last night it was wrong YOU SAID THAT what the hell changed, this isn't supposed to be right. DAMON, WE AGREED. Which they did, and then Damon changed his mind while showering chipperly that morning? Or perhaps when she kissed him back.

    Which leads me to the conclusion that this is not about Stefan, this wrongness. Not anymore. (Of course not; she's not with Stefan. She is not his brother's girl.) (Although it's a little about Stefan, because she still loves his self-destructive ass. Even though he's kind of an ass, it's true. Although it's a nice ass. Kinda boney for my taste though. Damon's ass is nicer, sorry.)

    This is about because they agreed it was wrong. And frankly, it's always been wrong to Elena. Because she loves Stefan, because she was with Stefan, because it's Damon and she doesn't want to love Damon too, because she doesn't want to be with Damon. It's terrifying for her. It's not the feelings or actions of the girl she wants to be: the girl she doesn't want to disappoint.

    I would like to believe Elena is on her way to come to terms with this "wrongness" on the bridge later, with Matt. I guess we'll see.

  • Was there more in this episode?

    - I like this Meredith Fell character. I don't think she killed her lanky dickhead prom date because it's too obvious, but what do I know?
    - Bye, Jeremy. :'( I think you know you were compelled but not really but you do.
    - THE DECONSTRUCTION OF THIS SWITCH BUSINESS IS GREAT, I LOVE IT. EVERYONE'S SWITCH IS FRIED. DAMON'S, STEFAN'S, EVERYONE'SSSSSSS. There is no freaking switch, get it through your thick vampire skulls, you morons.


    [identity profile] 2012-01-14 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
    Oh my friend Hannah [ profile] littledivinity wrote about the D/E scene and I wanted to ~share with you because it's spot-on, I think:

    I shall see Elena try to put off a kiss, thinking Damon would go for it anyway, and that way she would be able to convince herself not to feel guilty because it was Damon taking what he wanted instead of them meeting in the middle. That sounds judgmental of Elena. I think Elena didn't even realize that's what she was doing or that she has a tendency to do that. She passes the buck on very few things, but her culpability in regard to Damon and Stefan and their triangle is one of them. She likes to act like Damon is reacting to absolutely nothing, and simply taking what isn't his, and what she wasn't offering. On some level, I suppose, that's vaguely correct. But when he said he knew they couldn't kiss, that flash of confusion almost implied that there's some sort of ... not game, but a standard set of actions she expects. And it comforts her that she doesn't have to ask herself if she wanted that kiss, because she can always tell herself that Damon took it, so it's a moot point. But here, she says no because she takes for granted that they'll kiss pretty soon, and when Damon says no, it's like she has to question for the first time, "Wait. But. But this is where we kiss ... I mean, where you kiss me." Or that's how I interpreted it.

    At any rate, it was perfect, and I loved that development in Damon. I loved to see him trying to convince her not to blame Stefan too much. But mostly, I want to sort of suggest that the reason Damon took the step back is because the frustration and yearning and ... well frustration is gone now. He knows that she wants him, too. That she cares. And so he can wait now. Because Damon's hugest problem is his lack of self-worth and the idea that he is not deserving of the things he wants, and that's slowly being erased, leaving behind the sweet boy that Katherine Pierce had a deft hand in ruining. Just saying.

    [identity profile] 2012-01-15 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
    OOOH, THANK YOU FOR SHARING WITH ME. Innnnnnteresting. ITA about Elena. She really would rather believe that she holds no culpability in this thing with Damon. Which is totally understandable, because this thing with Damon is awful, lol. (And also why Damon takes it upon himself to be the bad guy sometimes. See: the kiss.) I forgot to talk about this in my review, but I totally giggled when Elena kept saying "I can't" -- even after Damon said he wasn't planning to kiss her again! It was adorbs, and sounded like she was just having a conversation with herself. All the while staring at his mouth. :) I can't with these fools sometimes.

    Agreed about Damon too. I suppose it's weird that he's so chill now, but. It's been confirmed that this thing with Elena is not just in his head now! THIS IS EVERYTHING. And I'd argue that it in fact has nothing to do with being "worthy" of Elena, even. Damon doesn't think of love in those terms. (Most of his "I don't deserve you" back in S2 came from the belief that he'd never be able to earn his forgiveness for snapping Jeremy's neck. But now that their friendship has been repaired, all is well.) The only thing that matters is that Elena feels what he feels. They can be undeserving wretches together. :) (Hence why "I like you now" was so important to their construction.)